idea-expression dichotomy

The Freedom of Expression, the Constriction of Ideas

Monday, July 10, 2006

Square One

9 July 2006. Was taking a walk along the canal, my usual time of solitude with God. Thought to myself - what have I achieved with my life? Here I was, 30 years 1 month and 1 day old. In terms of career, it feels like starting all over again at pupillage stage with the return to the legal fold, in an alien job scope. In terms of relationships, as I contemplate friends who've not only gotten married but for many, have even started families of their own, I also seem to have lost everything that I used to have. Even in terms of my walk with God and my ministries, all in all, it seems like going back to square one in everything.

Which, put in perspective, is a good thing. Square One is a fresh start. It is a new beginning in everything, and brings hope, giving a forward focus.

I decided the first thing I needed to do was to know God all over again. And so I asked Him, rather bluntly, who He was and what was He like. And this is what He replied:

I am righteous and upright. I love, and I pour out my love lavishly on those who love me. I honour those who honour my name. I am just. I will be your vengeance against your enemies.

And I followed up by asking - what do you wish to see in this world?

And He said:

I want to see righteousness and justice. I want to see integrity. I want to see kindness for fellow men in my name. I want to see faithfulness and reliance on me. I want to see a pure heart and clean hands. For the pure in heart will see God.

And how should we love You?

By loving the people around you, through the acts of sacrifice and kindness. That which you do for the least of these, you do for me.

Square One is a good place to be, a good place to meet God.